A few years ago I lost my oldest daughter. She went to be with the Lord on September 24, 2011. This was the first time that I had ever stood by the bedside of anyone and watch them pass quietly into another life.
At first I didn’t know what I felt. However, after a few moments it all hit me like a ton of bricks. Janice was gone, and I would never see her again on this side of eternity. I found it so hard to realize. I could not bring myself to feel the pain of losing her; so I lived, or so I thought, beyond the reality of her passing.
After a few days of living in denial, I found myself caught up in a state of a type of depression or sadness that I could not shake off. I could not bring myself to pray, as I felt so far away from reality. Almost as though I was in another world and another time. I found it hard to recognize the life I had been living. Nothing seemed real anymore. In other words, I was in a daze.
Realizing that I could not go on this way (being so detached from reality) I began to force myself back to reality. I began to pray, but words would not come. I tried to busy myself, but that did not do the trick. I tried reliving events in the past that we had shared together. . . nothing worked.
Finally, in desperation, I threw up my hands and began to PRAISE THE LORD! As I lost myself in praise, I found myself in reality. I was alive again! Thank God, I was alive again! My joy that had been lost in mourning was found in praise. My zest for living was alive and well again.
PRAISE IS WHAT BROUGHT BACK THE JOY IN MY LIFE. It was as if God was waiting for me to acknowledge Him in all things, even in death; for it is God who gives life, and God who calls those to Himself at his appointed time.
If you ever find yourself in a state of depression, or just feeling down and out, just lift your voice to heaven and begin to PRAISE THE LORD! Begin to thank Him for all of life, even that part of life that we find hard to accept. It’s all God’s doing and it is marvelous in our eyes!
This experience has taught me to cherish every moment of my life; every moment with my children; every moment with my family and friends. I now make the most of every opportunity to sow into their lives and enjoy all that they have to pour into mine. In other words, I have learned to MAKE EVERY MOMENT COUNT!
PRAISE THE LORD!